dovecameron to the most beautiful man I have ever
known, and my best friend: yesterday marks 5 years
since you've left us, and I still feel you all around me
every day, all the time. I feel as though I understand
you more and more as I begin to understand myself
in these formative years, and although it can't ever
replace the years I've lost with you, I know I am never
without you because you are in me :) I am so happy
every day, dad, and so is Claire. Both of your girls are
following their bliss and living their great adventure.
Taking no prisoners, loving all they can and eating
ice cream bars and overly salted popcorn in bed. I
wish you could meet all of the amazing people I've
brought into my life and know how safe and loved I
am. I know that wherever you are you know all of
this, and you laugh at me when I speak as though
you're gone. You taught me how to love, and you are
love to me. The gift that you have given to me and
Claire, the intense pain and loss, has brought a
clarity, a deep human connection, an empathy and a
color to our lives in a way that nothing else could. I
can never go back to who I was before, and I would
never want to. You still teach me lessons every day,
and make me laugh as the lessons you instilled at a
young age begin to settle into my bones and make
more sense. You set me up for the best life
imaginable, and I plan to make your proud every
single day and never waste it. I love you eternally,
and can't wait to see you again, maybe in our next
life as we find each other over and over. Forever your
best friend, and your little girl.
